Rant rant rant

I have been a bit of an emotional wreck this past week pretty much for no reason. Work sucks right now. I'm not happy here, I have decided I am going to look for something new. It's not the job itself that I dislike, it's the people I work for. Can't exactly go into detail, but I always believed that you should treat others how you would like to be treated. 

The navy is on hold until the government starts back up. I may not completely understand the entire reasoning for the shut down, but I think it's completely bullshit. They shut down an organization that touches millions of lives and effects us negatively. My husband isn't able to officially join because my social security card is not valid due to me changing it two weeks ago. The government shut down, closing the social security office. 1. My husband can't join the Navy, putting our lives on hold. 2. I am unable to officially change my last name on everything. I know, I know... There are bigger problems. But c'mon. 

So that's my little rant. I hate being in limbo!

I love Halloween time

 Can't believe it's almost over :(

Excuses Excuses



I'm a little bit down on myself lately and a bit annoyed with myself.

 

I have gained a little bit of weight. To me, its completely noticeable.

I was never super thin, ever.. I have always had what people would call "curves", I have thick legs and a big butt, which I always kind of liked, until I noticed weight in my stomach, and arms, and face.

 

I am so self conscious now. Even with my husband. I feel like since I have been with him, I haven't really focused on being active and working out. We eat out on the weekends, and we don't cook entirely "healthy" on the weeknights because my husband doesn't like too much. I have noticed my jeans fitting tighter and my t-shirts looking disgusting when I  put them on.

 I have gotten to the point where I hate my body. I hate looking at it and its depressing.

 

I know its a lot of freaking work to get weight off, and I know I have to stop eating the way I do, which scares me because I don't know how long I can keep up the motivation.

 

I went to the gym the week before this week, and came out of it really sore.. but my goal is to start going again daily with my husband after work. I want to make it a routine. I have cut WAY back on pop.. I was a dr.pepper addict. I would have 2 dr.peppers a day or more and now I am down to 2 a week! So I am really proud of that.

 

I am going to lose this weight. I am going to. I have to, because I want to be happy. I want my husband to always be attracted to me.

 

I am sitting at work writing, this, and I wish I could just leave and go to the gym now. I will go tonight. I have to.

Baby fever

Caught the bug recently.

 

Seeing so many ladies having beautiful babies and I am a little jealous.

We decided to wait awhile so I'm hoping this fever wears off here soon.

Family First

We got married, we moved into a new apartment, and I bought a new car... all at once. So since we have done all this, our lives are now boring. Okay, that's not totally true.

 

We had a great weekend. I miss it already. You know those days you have and you just know you'll just miss it? that was my entire weekend.

I stayed home from work Friday because of my wisdom tooth hurting so bad, and Austin was off because it was Nevada Day observance.. or something. So after sleeping in until 11 we went to pick up his car that was in the shop, and we dropped off a costume at my parents, then we tried to go Halloween costume shopping. I couldn't find anything that was decently made and didn't make me look like a street walker... and my husband is so picky so we aren't dressing up this year. I know, sad. Later Friday night we went to the movies and saw Bad Grandpa. Very funny. Johnny Knoxville is a favorite of mine, so of course this movie entertained me.

 

Saturday night we had a huge family dinner at my In-laws. It was like Thanksgiving, or Christmas, but it was for Halloween. My family came and pretty much my husbands entire family was there. Then we all went to the pumpkin patch. That place doesn't get old. 

I love being able to look around and see everyone that I love so much all together. People say you don't get to chose your family, but you do. By marrying my husband I chose him, and I chose his family. I couldn't have chosen a better family to share my life with. I love them all so much.

 

I think since my mother in law knows my husband will be leaving soon for the Navy, she is trying to spend as much family time together as possible. We went to her house on Sunday and just hung out with her and the family all day. Its important to her not to lose him in any way, so I want them to spend as much time together before he leaves. Its important to me too.. I am close with them as well. Being away from our families will be difficult for us. I am making it a priority now, that once we are living somewhere else, that we see our family at least four times a year.

 

iPhone's camera is always open! (:

 

Hubby<3

 

This is my husbands grandmother. She has been such a big part of our

lives, and I cannot believe how much she already feels like family!

 

 

The pumpkin that we chose at the patch. My mother in law bought

the lace pumpkin glove, and I was so excited to use it.

 

 

I made these really cute cupcakes this weekend for the family dinner.

Yes, they were a huge hit!

 

 

Trying on masks, none of which we actually bought! Ha!